Lucky No. 14?

Today I start my day off with some delicious turbo coffee! AND it is fully-caffeinated.  This is an occasional treat I make for myself because on days like today it is my silver-lining.

Most of you may not know, but since October 2013 G and I have been TTC (trying to conceive for those unfamiliar with the TTC-world). We have told a few family members and close friends about this decision, but now we are making it more public. 

The reason for this is because over this past year I have spent a lot of time on blogs, forums, and YouTube channels, and found comfort, knowledge, and help from other people's experiences, so I want to share ours in a sense to pay-it-forward. Be forewarned: this is going to be an honest, open account of our journey toward parenthood- it is not for the prude and it is not for the heartless.

On days like today (CD 1) when it has become blatantly obvious that our efforts have once again proved fruitless (pun not intended?) I like to indulge in some of the things I have been limiting during the TTC portion of the month. Don't get me wrong though, the love and support of my husband, G, is the number one thing that helps on these days, but tangible items like caffeinated coffee, sushi, and wine have their own "healing effect".

Anyhow, today is CD 1 of our 14th cycle trying. This cycle is especially significant because it marks our first month using fertility medication in conjunction with the other medications that keep my body in balance. My next post will be about the medications specifically, today I am just here to lay the foundation.

Back in 2013, before the mark of the New Year, we were blessed with a BFP in our 3rd cycle. We were totally thrilled. I woke up G with the positive test and baby Toms shoes, we took secret 4-week belly shots and tons of pictures of the positive test. However, our happiness did not last long. I began to MC in January when I returned to work. I believe it is human nature to speculate many, many reasons for MC and there is so much that goes through the mind of a woman during this time but I just cannot articulate it in this post. Perhaps, that will be the topic of a future post. All I want to establish today is that it happened- and we made it through together.

In the several months post-MC, I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and Hashimoto's disease and started taking medication (and eating more salt!) to help balance out the hormones associated with that. In these past several months we have had nothing but BFNs, but looking at the science of it, one should not be shocked- my body simply is not ready {enter RE}. As I mentioned before, this cycle (Lucky No. 14),  is when I will be taking fertility medication, under the supervision of my Reproductive Endocrinologist, Dr. L. Once I get the actual medication in my hands- be prepared for the next blog post and YouTube update!

To make things a little easier to follow, to the side is an acronym infographic from HelloBee that I found incredibly helpful when we first started this journey to parenthood. HelloBee is a great resource for information and connecting with other people who have gone through similar experiences.

To bring you up to speed in a different fashion you can watch my first video on my YouTube channel here (don't forget to like and subscribe!). This is actually a video I filmed back in June 2014. I have had the desire and intention to keep a record of my experiences but have been nervous about making it public- but here it goes!

Like I warned earlier, these posts (and videos) are going to be open, honest accounts- not for the prude or heartless. We are sharing our experiences in hopes that we may help others out (you are not alone) and also so that our friends and family can understand. So, please be kind. Be back soon!

<3 L

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